3 posts tagged “death”

I mentioned that I found the carcass of a dead bird in the back of the library recently. If that wasn't traumatic enough, the other day, there was another dead bird on the road, which is really not surprising. There's dead birds all the time, being runned over because there are TOO MANY FRICKIN CARS here. And then, there's a flattened frog? toad? at the end of my street, right by the stop sign. So today, just about ten minutes ago, I hear this chicken squawking and flying outside my office window and this dog goes flying after it and then I see this boy there. So I go outside to see WTF is going on. And I see his mother standing on their patio just watching him and then she notices me and points me out to the boy, who was apparently trying to kill the poor chicken and her chicks. The boy was kind of cute, but that's beside the point! I had seen them innocently walking around our property and I thought, how cute. chicken family. and so i ask him what was he doing, trying to kill the chickens? because he had not one but two dogs, one unleashed! AND he was carrying a fricking BAT in the other hand! OH MY GOSH!! So I asked why, because, he said, there are making babies and there are apparently too many chickens in the neighborhood, so he took it in his own hands to control the chicken population. I have to agree that there are a bunch of chickens here because it's wet, shady, green and ideal to raise mutiple chicken families. But usually I've seen them by the highway. It was the first time for me to see them around the library. So I was happy but I was horrified that someone would try to KILL them, just like that! I guess he could sense my hostility or whatever because they were on private property and I highly disapprove of killing anything! But his dogs were still trying to get the poor little chicky that was left over. I have no idea what happened to the other chicks or the mother for that matter. I hope she got away. But throughout all of this the mother and the father were just watching him do this! I just LOOKED at them and walked away. Ugh. Maybe it was going to be their dinner or something. I couldn't really blame them though, because they do live here and have to deal with the chickens. Oh my gosh. One chick came into the library just now! What to do? It's going to die either way! ugh! I left the door open. I hope it saves itself. Run away, chick, run away! I wish chickens could fly at a time like this.
I don't know if I attract these things or they just randomly happen but there's been too much death lately. sigh.

Jon and I did our valentine's early. On Monday night we went to Auntie Pasto's for dinner. He mentioned that we should check it out a few times so I called to make reservations but they apparently don't take reservations, so the gal who cut me off said. It's a relatively small place but cozy. food is good, tiramisu is awesome. I liked it.
This week is another busy week for me. Last night I went to support my friend, Janyce, because she had a PSI Basic coffee at her church, where Jon lives. I even invited my friend, Loan (Lon), from intermediate school to come check it out. Loan is JW but I thought she was open-minded enough to listen to what was being presented. Plus, it has made me think differently in my life and she could see that. She didn't sign up for the Basic but it was okay. I didn't think she would. Just wanted to support Janyce. She had a goal and I wanted her to meet that goal. It's funny the story of how I was able to see Loan again after so many years. We lost touch after college because I went to Japan but when I went to my Basic at the end of last September, she saw me at the Convention Center where the Basic was being held. I was so happy to see her! It's always nice to see old friends. So I'm trying to keep in touch with her now that she's back in my life. We're suppose to go hiking some time. I need to get into shape. She's married to a man almost twice her age but she seems very happy and content.
Speaking of Janyce, I want to send my condolences to her because her mother passed away all of a sudden last night. Jon called to tell me this morning. There have been many deaths recently. I just went to a funeral on Sunday for a friend's son. I notice that a lot of people pass away at the end of the year going into the new year from November to February. Especially people I know. My uncle passed away at the end of last year and his wife recently passed away soon after. They lived on another island so I couldn't go to the funeral. I remember the first funeral I went to by myself was for Elise's mom. It was very sad. It was also a trying time in my personal life and relationship. It was the year 2000. The turning point in my life. After surviving that year, I knew I was capable of overcoming heartbreak. Heartbreak is growth. I didn't know that before.
Then today is Valentine's but it doesn't feel like it. Everyday is love. Tonight I'm meeting some friends for karaoke. I'm surprised that Jon is so flexible. He says we see each other a lot so I should hang out with my friends when I can. I'm happy he said that. I also have a class tonight, that's why we moved V-Day to Monday.
Tomorrow is oh yeah, Dr. DeMartini's talk. You know The Breakthrough Experience guy. My friend Bryan always raves about him and his philosophies. I'll see and hear for myself tomorrow.
Friday is class again. I enjoy the class. I'm learning a lot from the readings but I can't help but feel stagnant and lazy. There are papers to write, more books to read but I just procrastinate. I finally wrote a paper but I still have to clean it up. I've been buying the books as they come up in class because I'm trying to be frugal. But I end up spending anyway for ikebana (flower arranging), piano lessons, gas, parking, whatever expenses add up. I'm going to have to buy the books anyway but not an undergraduate anymore with support from the folks. Basically cover my expenses myself, I just live at home, which helps.
My mom hasn't been well. Something's going around, a lot of people are sick, but I believe she had some nasty food poisoning yesterday. She seems better today. I want to take care of my parents. I want to make them happy. But I really want to achieve balance and  self-worth, that I am worthy and capable of anything.

Jon just came and gave me yellow roses for valentine's day. So beautiful and sweet!

I know I'm due to put some new pictures up. Talk about lazy...I will!

A friend has passed away, just this morning. Her name is Tim and she's from Hilo, Hawai'i. She was only 22. She was apparently in a car accident. Don't know any details yet.
I'm just shocked and numb right now. I can't really type.
I met her in Tenri a few years ago, when I was teaching English and she was studying Japanese. Kind of a wild child but has a good heart and would do anything for the people close to her.
Why is life so fleeting? Why do these things happen?
Don't wait everybody. Just tell everyone that you love them and care about them. Don't hold any grudges or anything. You never know what's going to happen the next day or the next minute.
Tim was Meg's very good friend. Meg is my co-worker. Meg is from Japan but she was my student and now we work together. I feel for her so much.
How devastating could it be to lose someone you love, someone very close to your heart? It's heartbreaking.
How do you find the words of comfort?