Valentine's and random thoughts (yesterday's post but vox didn't let me post it)

Jon and I did our valentine's early. On Monday night we went to Auntie Pasto's for dinner. He mentioned that we should check it out a few times so I called to make reservations but they apparently don't take reservations, so the gal who cut me off said. It's a relatively small place but cozy. food is good, tiramisu is awesome. I liked it.
This week is another busy week for me. Last night I went to support my friend, Janyce, because she had a PSI Basic coffee at her church, where Jon lives. I even invited my friend, Loan (Lon), from intermediate school to come check it out. Loan is JW but I thought she was open-minded enough to listen to what was being presented. Plus, it has made me think differently in my life and she could see that. She didn't sign up for the Basic but it was okay. I didn't think she would. Just wanted to support Janyce. She had a goal and I wanted her to meet that goal. It's funny the story of how I was able to see Loan again after so many years. We lost touch after college because I went to Japan but when I went to my Basic at the end of last September, she saw me at the Convention Center where the Basic was being held. I was so happy to see her! It's always nice to see old friends. So I'm trying to keep in touch with her now that she's back in my life. We're suppose to go hiking some time. I need to get into shape. She's married to a man almost twice her age but she seems very happy and content.
Speaking of Janyce, I want to send my condolences to her because her mother passed away all of a sudden last night. Jon called to tell me this morning. There have been many deaths recently. I just went to a funeral on Sunday for a friend's son. I notice that a lot of people pass away at the end of the year going into the new year from November to February. Especially people I know. My uncle passed away at the end of last year and his wife recently passed away soon after. They lived on another island so I couldn't go to the funeral. I remember the first funeral I went to by myself was for Elise's mom. It was very sad. It was also a trying time in my personal life and relationship. It was the year 2000. The turning point in my life. After surviving that year, I knew I was capable of overcoming heartbreak. Heartbreak is growth. I didn't know that before.
Then today is Valentine's but it doesn't feel like it. Everyday is love. Tonight I'm meeting some friends for karaoke. I'm surprised that Jon is so flexible. He says we see each other a lot so I should hang out with my friends when I can. I'm happy he said that. I also have a class tonight, that's why we moved V-Day to Monday.
Tomorrow is oh yeah, Dr. DeMartini's talk. You know The Breakthrough Experience guy. My friend Bryan always raves about him and his philosophies. I'll see and hear for myself tomorrow.
Friday is class again. I enjoy the class. I'm learning a lot from the readings but I can't help but feel stagnant and lazy. There are papers to write, more books to read but I just procrastinate. I finally wrote a paper but I still have to clean it up. I've been buying the books as they come up in class because I'm trying to be frugal. But I end up spending anyway for ikebana (flower arranging), piano lessons, gas, parking, whatever expenses add up. I'm going to have to buy the books anyway but not an undergraduate anymore with support from the folks. Basically cover my expenses myself, I just live at home, which helps.
My mom hasn't been well. Something's going around, a lot of people are sick, but I believe she had some nasty food poisoning yesterday. She seems better today. I want to take care of my parents. I want to make them happy. But I really want to achieve balance and  self-worth, that I am worthy and capable of anything.

Jon just came and gave me yellow roses for valentine's day. So beautiful and sweet!

I know I'm due to put some new pictures up. Talk about lazy...I will!